Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Not my way but Yours...

8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.

9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.

10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,

11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.


I have thought about this passage a lot since last night. I took my photography class to Indy yesterday to do urban photography, and also we took photos for the Indianapolis Zoo. We had a great day and ended it at The Eagles Nest. The Eagles Nest is a restaurant on top of The Hyatt in downtown Indy. It revolves 360 degrees, and it has a spectacular view of the city. All of the windows are floor to ceiling, so it was a great photo op.

Close to the end of our day, Ryan called me. I took the call amongst my students, thinking it was the kids wanting to say goodnight. Well, it was not. WACAP had just called to inform Ryan that a private donor had backed out of supporting WACAP for their own financial reasons, and this directly affected our adoption. The money that was promised initially for Chun Yan is no longer there. This money covered all of WACAP's fees and all of China's fees. Needless to say, I was SHOCKED!!!!!! I also was caught so off guard that I cried in front of my students and I am sure that they were soooooooo uncomfortable and did not know what to think!!! I don't think that all knew what was going on, I did not sob or anything, but there were definitely tears! I felt like the OB had just come in to tell me that I was having a miscarriage. I have never had a miscarriage, but it must feel like this!!!

So, what does all of this mean for our adoption???? We are not going to give up, but, we have about $20,000 to come up with now instead of about 8k. WACAP is still funding some of the money lost, and to that we are grateful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I am doing something that I never thought I would do. I am putting up a donation button on the sidebar, and if you feel led to help us bring Chun Yan home, we would be forever grateful! This is so not me to ask for anything!!!! I am being humbled beyond words...But I really felt led to do it...

I am not sure if you can even see the "Chip in" button??? I made it last night, but I did not see it load. But, someone donated this morning and I got an e-mail, and I was shocked. She can see it, but I can't. REALLY FREAKY!!!!!!!!!!! Do you see it????

We will God all of the Glory for whatever the outcome is... Obviously, His plans and ways are not ours!!!! But, we know that they are ALWAYS BETTER!!!!!!

Here are some pics of her from last week. A friend of Bethel's made these dresses and tuxedos for the kids for when they perform. These pics were taken when they were trying them on, that is why they have their street clothes underneath... :-)

Isn't our daughter BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


BSC said...

We would do things so different if we were in charge, wouldn't we? And there would be a huge mess. It's a good thing our sovereign God is in control and has a plan. I'm praying that you will feel his comfort and know that God will supply all of your needs.

The pictures are gorgeous. What a treat.


Anonymous said...

Hmmm...I can't see it either...

Anonymous said...

HI Rebekah-
Wow! I can't believe this post and I will pray that it all works out. She is so adorable in that dress!
I'm sorry that the path doesn't seem as clear as you thought--you know I know that feeling.
I'll be thinking of you and hope there is something I can do for YOU.